Down but not out

I am deeply disappointed in my latest results post CT scan.

The truth is I have had a miracle year where from July 2011 for at least 7 months I was blessed with a Progression Free result until March 2012.

The results from the March to May CT scan are abissmal. They could not be any worse.The tumours have been completely unresponsive to the GEMTAX chemotherapy. They have been growing exponentially and at a dangerously fast pace.My abdomen is now full of lumps and bumps and pressure on my lymph nodes is creating some restriction with my mobility-give me back my legs!!!!!!!!

There is no fix for my led legs. It may not improve at this rate. I am thinking about getting a walking aid- I have no pride-whatever helps I will do. My body is shrinking but my abdomen is swollen.

I have been taken off the chemo as it is deemed to not be working..... Another treatment is being considered, and with approval, may begin early July.

Every treatment I am on has a chance of working. The first one worked, the second one did not. The third one may again give me Progression Free time. If it does- we shall give thanks. If it does not, you do the maths.....

It has been a time of grieving. It is now a time to look ahead with hope.

My hope comes from a higher place. Do not be surprised. I am deeply a woman of faith and have always been. My meditation is always based on God's love. I will trust with all of my heart and I will not lean on my own understanding. 

Let love abound. Let the peace of God that passes all understanding be with us.
Georgia